Goodbye 2014

Goodbye 2014.

We will keep you very dear in our heart.

It has been a sad and challenging year, but it was beautiful too. We lost our loved ones, and most dearly your beloved Atok. It was not easy for us. Yet alhamdulillah, now words could describe how Allah has been so merciful and loving towards us through our most difficult time.

Just before Atok left us, Allah blessed us with two weeks time to be by his side. And more than that, it felt as if the time had been stopped for us so we could cherish every moment spent with him. Adik, you were too little but still you could understand our mourning. Kakak, you could not stop crying the moment Atok left all of us. But when you saw his face one last time before we did a prayer for him your cry subsided, and alhamdulillah you were at peace.

"Why Atok smile Mommy?" I would not forget that question you asked me.

At that second I could not find a better way than to tell you, "Because Atok is returning to Allah. And I guess (I pray) he is happy. In shaa Allah"

Yes, death is the end of our life in this world. But it is most certainly the beginning of our next life, the eternal life. Everyone will face death one day. It is certain. And it should be our destination in this life. That moment we two sat by Atok was like a blessing Allah bestowed upon us. You were so hurt, losing your Atok. But that pain in your heart - as if - had gone immediately when you discovered Atok is going to meet his Creator. That this life is only temporary and our final destination is meeting our Lord. And we must not stop asking for His forgiveness and mercy to save us from the Fire and let us enter Jannah together with our loved ones. That we must strive to do good in this temporary world, preparing ourselves to meet Him. May Allah forgive us and purify our souls upon returning to Him. May Allah grant us a beautiful ending in this life.

We leave 2014 with a smile, not because we have survived the year. But because Allah has given us the chance to taste the sorrow and sweetness of being a human. To seek His forgiveness and to rely on no one but Him. Only Allah. He do not let us alone. His mercy and blessings are endless we could never ever count His favour.

"And when my servants ask you (O Muhammad), concerning Me, indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. Let them, then, respond unto Me, and believe in Me, so that they might follow the right way." ~ (Quran, 2:186)

We enter 2015 with a hope, not because we are strong to walk on. But because we know we are weak, yet Allah is taking care of us, guiding us all through the way.

"Indeed, We guided him to the way, be he grateful or be he ungrateful." ~ (Quran, 76 : 3)

"And Allah wants to lighten for you [your difficulties]; and mankind was created weak." ~ (Quran, 4 : 28)